this “labor day weekend” i went to “disneyland” w/ my dog and my bf. well, in actuality, “disneyland” was really my boyfriend’s house, and “weekend” was only 1 day, but i swear… it was the best vacation ever. although all my boyfriend did was sleep all day, i enjoyed every second of being next to him. what can i say? i love togetherness, and id do anything for just a few minutes with him.
but tonight, since i’m wide awake laying in bed (because of the heat), ive stumbled upon so many unanswered questions and realizations that i shouldve bumped into some time ago. i dont have high expectations, i just want to be appreciated. It’s hard to break through my walls and gain my trust and love, but please dont be fooled when say it’s so easy to lose it.
I know i don’t usually tell people this (probably because im so cold hearted), but I have the greatest boyfriend in the world. Every 21st he gives me a hello kitty thank you card, telling me how much he loves and cherishes me. I’ve honestly never been so happy in my life. I know you’re probably gonna read this sooner or later, so Happy Anniversary Nicholas William Wong, and Thank you for sitting in the car and listening to me sing horribly for 2 straight hours today <3
“see, I like the person that you are, but I’m in love with the person that you have potential to be.
and all your dreams sharing with me, and your secrets baring with me.
and the flaws? you aint even got to mention to me,
ambitious girl, you just wanna win..
and you’d rather chase your dreams, then to try to chase these men
that try to chase these skirts, that try to chase these shots with flavors
thas not even as sweet as her…”—
my parents and siblings left me. again. its cool and all, because i dont have to hear all of the blah blah blah and wah wah wah, but there’s one thing that i hate. THERE’S NEVER ANY FOOD! so tonight, i’m eating mcdonalds. not my first choice, and not very tasty/healthy, but.. its the closest place to my house. the only good thing about it is that i got to order a caramel frap, which im gonna NEED for this long journey of cleaning my room tonight :(
bee tee dubbbb, i just ate a french fry that was bigger than a #2 pencil! awesome.
i dont think i’ve ever blogged about my dog, but what the heck, why not? for those of you who know me, i have a peek-a-poo (pekanese poodle) named Biggie. i take him everywhere, and i do everything for him. he falls asleep in my arms, and every morning when i wake up, he’s still there, staring at me with his big brown eyes. honestly, i dont think i could live without him, ive grown so attatched. i never cared about someone so much before, it’s weird. im sure all of you who have pets know what im talking about. he’s amazing. and he’s the most sweetest and loving dog in the world.
“life is a beautiful struggle, people search through the rubble for a suitable hustle - some people usin their noodles, some people usin their muscle, some people people put it together and make it fit like a puzzle”—talib kweli
if you think about it, time is one of the most important things in life. what would this world be without it? In my life, time is very limited. my days revolve around ….
Balloons (i know, pathetic. but until i find a better job, im balloon lady at party city.)
School (watch out, Doctor Revita is on her way!)
FAMILY (i try to spend as much time with them as possible. they made me who i am today, and i owe them this much.)
friends/fun (okay. i know i kind of dropped all of my friends. And even the ones i kept, i flaked on all the time ever since i got a boyfriend. but… things will change. its getting there.)
as you can see, i dont really have time for anything, but between work, school, and my family, i do my best to make time for everybody else. im trying to make a point here……… why am i still trying to share my time with you, when you cant even give me some of yours?